Monday, April 9, 2012
I am in AWE (and an update)...
I have been so OVERWHELMED by everyone’s encouragement today. I am in awe actually. I have never really had a lot of friends and today I feel so blessed. I have more friends than I ever imagined. I just can’t even believe the love that has been poured out to me today. You ALL are so special to me. My heart is full! I know it will sounds strange, but God is blessing me so much already through this cancer journey! Every time I receive a message or a text I feel so joyful. I’ve received at least 50 emails or texts today. Can you believe that this little blog received 318 hits today? That is 318 prayers (I hope) for Kevan and I! Thank you everyone. It is amazing!
I have my first update. I’m sorry in advance if this is a little technical, but it might provide some insight to women that are going through this in the future. I found out that my hormone receptor test came back E+/P- (estrogen positive/progesterone negative). The estrogen positive result was only 20%. From what I understand it is good that it is positive, but a little bad that it is only 20%. I believe this helps the doctor decide if the cancer will respond to hormone therapy vs. other treatments. When we were in his office he mentioned that if it was positive (and the BRCA test was also – still waiting to hear on this one) that we may need to consider having my ovaries removed. If you know me and know about my fertility issues you will not be surprised that I broke down when he said this. I shed only a few small tears when he said “cancer”, but when he mentioned my “ovaries” it was too much for me and they had to find me some Kleenex. I’m sure that it has to do with the percentage so I have hope that 20% is good. So, this is another prayer opportunity (please!).
I have an appointment with the plastic surgeon on Wednesday to discuss my reconstruction. I will be having a bilateral (double) mastectomy followed by the reconstruction the same day. I’m okay with our decision to have the bilateral mastectomy and I think it is what is best for my sanity. I was able to talk to 2 other women that chose the same thing and they are very happy with the results. It is strange that women joke about implants all the time because we are so unhappy with our bodies, but now that I am at this point and I am having to choose this as an option it is really hard to accept. I now realize that I love the body that God gave me…imperfect as I think it is. My husband does too. So, I’m having a little bit of anxiety over this. But, I know that God is with me and will guide the surgeon’s hands. Please pray that Kevan and I will make the right decisions as there are many different options when it comes to reconstruction. It is pretty stressful. Also, pray that God will speak to us through the doctors so we know that the decisions they are making for my treatment and reconstruction are what God would have for me and that I will be happy (or content) with the results.
God is so good!
“…the prayer offered in faith will make the sick person well; the Lord will raise him up.” James 5:15
I am waiting on the following tests that will help determine treatment (chemo/radiation/other):
BRCA (gene test)
HER2 (growth factor test)
OncoType DX (a test that can indicate whether a women has a higher percentage of reoccurrence)